My Vision

Am I happy? Yes I am happy to be Alive and with my daughter someonegiving me unconditional love. Yes I am happy to be able to see again ~No I am not happy at all at the way you treated me like I never existedin your life, your complete denial of me as a person and rejection of allthe love we shared together. Of course there was a lot of suffering forover a year as you well know. I couldn't believe that someone I loved& who said they loved me so deeply with their eyes could treat me sofucking cruelly! Finally You've somehow come to realise something ofthese feelings from your own experience that you wrote to me onlybecause you needed someone to be there for you. Still ‘It is as it is’ ~as you say and that is ‘what you do!’ Yes it is! You mention loyalty andI have been there for you, always. I'm amazed you wrote to me but thatwas for You something you needed to relieve something in you it was notfor me. I don't believe you care if I'm really happy as in fact you haven’treally communicated with me since.You’ve never really bothered again I don't know why. I gave you thechance to be a friend but that's obviously not possible. I opened up againto be there for you to share something I believe in Do you know what youreally want and what are you willing to share in return? It seems nothing!I'm pissed off that I'm still writing this stuff to you again, if you want to bein touch with me do it for Me as you're feeling for me too not just becauseof what you need from me. Even though you said ‘with no expectations’ ~but you seemed desperate and I naturally responded otherwise I wouldhave behaved just like you which I could never do! I am tired of this,I don't know what you really want even though now you agree we didhave something very magical as I have told you so many times!You destroyed it and you let me and my love slowly die alone,you never once responded to My Pain! I don't want it any more.You either make some effort to share some feeling with me or not.20/09/2015 16:46Thank you I am in a dark place. Life is like that.Why are you still there after everything I have done?How do you let go when your life is turned upside down?Are you happy where you are?I think about you even though I don't stay in touch.It is hard to accept positive energy when you have nothing to return.I am sorry for every moment I hurt you Cosmicand I am grateful for the love you gave to me ~ Eternally