I need to know

If I still exist in any way as ‘real’ in your world, some communication ~energy, feeling would be nice or has it turned into nothing? We have hadvery different experiences and I can’t begin to ever explain that. It will betoo hard to continue for me as I went through a depression and I need tocome out & find some light again! I don’t want to remember you and onlyhave pain my pain, your pain? Would you even want to see me if I cameback to Anjuna? You told me to expect nothing even in our ‘friendship’I can’t do that anymore. I really need some communication*energy or Ihave to let you go forever. You let me go ~ you were never my prisoner,you are free I always respected and loved you but I can’t keep you in myheart any longer ~ I have always kept you there, a beautiful memory withlight shining. You came back when you needed help and even so I cameto be there for you. I don’t understand how you’re feeling now. Yes it waswonderful times that’s why I’m still in touch. You made it very clear to methat You have different priorities & we have a lot of damage too from thisbest time of our lives, tell me how we continue in a meaningful way or notAre you free enough this time to have a coffee with me?Tell me your truth and let us evolve together from it.