20/09/2015 19:00

I wouldn’t be who I am, who I aspire to be if I didn’t try hard to hold upthe light * It’s true I was in a black hole for 18 months struggling at thedeepest levels just like you are. (Time is a great healer) This sharing ofHonest feelings really helps so did living with my daughter who gives meunconditional Love*Somehow I held it up and I am happy that i can stillshare this truth with you as I have always endeavored to do. I don’t reallyknow why I am like that ~ finding the balance between holding the lightand letting go and escaping the turmoil and despair of the Mind. I havehad no sexy muse lover since you but ‘It is as it is ~ I have been throughsimilar experiences before! My vision, lesson of life has been to still try tomaintain something beautiful, Isn’t this what a (mystical) poet does?When you go through that dark emotional valley you have to believe insomething good ~ for example your children as I did with my daughter orthe truths of the heart ~ trusting those moments of being in Love, beingtruly inspired even the truth of dealing with the pain, doubts, guilt, denial,rejection! This is the biggest of lessons, it’s not TV this is REAL profoundinter/human behavior and its unforeseen consequences; psychological ~emotional, physical, spiritual! Being able to realise this makes us moreConscious of LIFE ~ You get Power to eventually come through the painof suffering, loss, negativity, resentment, doubt, grief, fear, lonely despairI always loved the Ideal of a Romantic, sensitive, happy, CompassionateBodhisattva and I am very Thankful that I have such an Inspirational ~guide and I can freely share that with people I love and in my creations.I am a human like everyone else but I refuse to hate which in effect onlydestroys me more! I know that can be easy to say but I try for this higherIdeal. Call it Love call it Spirit, call it obsessive, stupid even, I don’t know,I feel it gives my life meaning. That’s why I am a traveller, living in Goa,that’s why I love you the way I do. That’s what fills my poems * art work.Ultimately You/we are dealing with a deep multi dimensional lesson, bebrave embrace it; sounds crazy but be thankful! By embracing with thishigher understanding you’ll let it go ~ naturally. I’ve felt your open heart& I know you have great, sincere qualities! Yes It was very hard gettingno energy back, for that reason I try to share this energy ~ with you nowbut remember you have people who love you & forgive youand wish that you find true bliss***x.